tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7195616894993495285.post5961112832049681786..comments2024-02-16T18:19:13.539-08:00Comments on Ramblings From Yet Another Stranger on the Bus: Send Les - Despite Her Protestations, She Likes ItLeslie Morganhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15702472429383639709noreply@blogger.comBlogger8125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7195616894993495285.post-50374341319627728202011-04-06T13:59:29.378-07:002011-04-06T13:59:29.378-07:00@ Tag ~ Thank you, Sir! I'm doing all right in...@ Tag ~ Thank you, Sir! I'm doing all right in my own little way.Leslie Morganhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/15702472429383639709noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7195616894993495285.post-31981668509346941902011-04-06T12:48:28.094-07:002011-04-06T12:48:28.094-07:00Les I understand the "what the hell just happ...Les I understand the "what the hell just happened here and why" For me that's part of being introspective and learning to live life a little better each day(but not often succeeding). <br />Rachel indeed this is Leslie's journey to walk one day at a time so I wonder why she wants to walk it over again. Of course it's not over with but I don't see how looking back helps. Leslie's response to me clears it up and if she can help one more aloholic than my opinion doesn't matter. Thanks for sharing.Anonymoushttps://www.blogger.com/profile/00533184345345882921noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7195616894993495285.post-23761263476045950322011-04-04T08:34:16.816-07:002011-04-04T08:34:16.816-07:00@ Rachel ~ Wow! Passionate conversation as mention...@ Rachel ~ Wow! Passionate conversation as mentioned in my blog's headline? I'm FOR it.<br /><br />Here is what I know, so far, and I can't imagine I could ever be dissuaded from this. I was an alcoholic from very young childhood. NO, I didn't drink at the time. I just had all the behaviors. It took me decades to land on the right poison, but I did, finally. I am an alcoholic still. NO, I am not actively drinking. I just have all the mental, emotional and physical markers for it. One can learn a different way to manage those damaged parts of themselves. I BELIEVE that. But, I promise you, sprinkle me with a little alcohol today and you will have instant idiot on your hands.<br /><br />Here is an observation I've made. I don't want to over-generalize, but there is only so much space here. Please credit me with being able to see things both generally and in great detail. Most men I see in recovery do adapt the "put it behind you and move forward" stance. Some women do, too, of course. Most women, and some few men, choose to spend time remembering it, grieving it, working on "why". Since that is my nature anyway (studying and seeking), it doesn't surprise me that I'm working on my mental obsession/physical allergy in this way.<br /><br />I know this: just as I have to write, right now I have to write about this. I took my 2 blog posts that share on alcoholism to a meeting yesterday. Some of the AAs don't have access to a computer or don't know how to operate one. So I printed 2 copies each and shared them. I was asked to keep bringing in the April Alliteration - Alcohol posts. OK. That's easy. I will.\<br /><br />Rae, "chartering my course" and "scrutiny mutiny" pleased me very much in my language center! Thank you. As you've said to me from time to time, "I wish I'd written that."Leslie Morganhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/15702472429383639709noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7195616894993495285.post-59578970105822910322011-04-04T03:12:16.795-07:002011-04-04T03:12:16.795-07:00Tag - why are you concerned that Leslie is charter...Tag - why are you concerned that Leslie is chartering her course? It's her journey - get off the bus and walk the next stop if you don't want to read it. "it's over and done with" - is it ever done with? Doesn't that trivialise it, to say that? Is one ever cured of alcoholism? I would say no. And, you know, I've lost three babies but, because I have two healthy kids, should I forget that I ever had those experiences? Hell, no. <br /><br />Les, I applaud your directness and self-scrutiny - especially when there's scrutiny mutiny.Rachel Fentonhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/10046917627054462214noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7195616894993495285.post-86027719436095821322011-04-03T13:18:07.259-07:002011-04-03T13:18:07.259-07:00@ Kirk ~ Ah, I appreciate you! First, I DO get it ...@ Kirk ~ Ah, I appreciate you! First, I DO get it about the conserving time for whatever reasons. Remember, I grew up hearing Gramps say, about Granny, "Mary spends more time thinking how to shortcut something than it would take her to just do it."<br /><br />You may ask anything about the alcoholism, Kirk. I brought it up. I the one who needs catharsis. (And also to kick that dog poop off of my shoe!) So you may ask about any specifics you ponder. Re: the throwing fireballs ~ if you're asking me if I was out there hiking in heights, throwing fireballs while drunk, having driven there for 2 hours, NO. However, alcoholics are typically VERY angry. I certainly was. Actually, I'm just a very angry person for all kinds of reasons, and alcohol made it worse. So the fireballs of anger were made more magnificent by my alcoholism. I hope that answers it, and if not, the please tell me and I'll keep trying.Leslie Morganhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/15702472429383639709noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7195616894993495285.post-38328420869045436952011-04-03T13:06:26.136-07:002011-04-03T13:06:26.136-07:00I don't like running errands. I like to conser...I don't like running errands. I like to conserve as much time as possibe. But here's the nub. I like to conserve as much time as possible so as to NOT HAVE TO THINK about conserving time. In other words, I don't like to waste time because it might rob me of time that could better served being wasted. Does that make sense? Didn't think so.<br /><br />You know I have a love of tacky-looking neon signs. Bet the Lucky Cuss sign looks fantastic at night.<br /><br />Since you brought up the acoholism, I do have a question. In the months leading up to your blogging hiatus, you gave no indication whatsoever that you had a drinking problem. I don't blame you for not wanting to discuss it. But as you write about you going-ons more than you write about anything else, it does make me wonder about how the drinking fit in with some of the things you were decribing. For instance, the post where you throw imaginary balls of anger over a cliff. Remember that? Did that have something to do with alcohol. You have no obligation to answer, and I understand if you don't, but it's because you're such a good writer that I'm curious about the context of your pre-blogging hiatus posts.Kirkhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/02155991693956178030noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7195616894993495285.post-70483693049058156742011-04-03T11:55:55.776-07:002011-04-03T11:55:55.776-07:00@ Tag ~ GOOD question and comment. I believe I eve...@ Tag ~ GOOD question and comment. I believe I even know my true answer. You're right - it's inactive and I work against it every single day. However, I am still surrounded by a mist of "what the hell just happened here, and why?" I am still in terrible shock that the (so obviously suited to me) disease hit. So I am trying to organize both my thoughts and my feelings. Just an extra tool to help ensure it never happens again.Leslie Morganhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/15702472429383639709noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7195616894993495285.post-34191702954070981352011-04-03T11:46:46.998-07:002011-04-03T11:46:46.998-07:00Nice caddy, why the hell are you musing about your...Nice caddy, why the hell are you musing about your alcohol journey, it's over it's done with, move on with all due respect.Anonymoushttps://www.blogger.com/profile/00533184345345882921noreply@blogger.com